When I realised I was fearless

(I was fronting)

(On being fearlessly courageous (part 1)

This past weekend I participated in Open artist studios in South London and I was fronting!

I thought I was ok until I spoke with a fellow artist (who at the age of 60 decided to take up painting), I realised that I was terrified of how the visitors would respond to my work.

I have had my first solo show back in March, however this was from the requests of people who I knew admired my work, and not complete strangers.  I realised I cover up my fears with being busy and I hardly acknowledge that little girl inside, who is often very fearful and vulnerable. 
 
So as it was a New Moon and I am letting go, I decided to drop the mask and I let my vulnerable self and my work be seen to the public.  Being vulnerable is something that was not really celebrated in my childhood home; vulnerability and mistakes ( for various reasons mainly due to time, money and culture) so I just got on with it.  This weekend I gave myself permission to be this way and I allowed myself to receive feedback about my work as long as it was constructive. 

The weekend was filled with a lot of love and appreciation for my work.  However the real shift was thatI did it! I became fearless through my own self-awareness, care and vulnerability.
 
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Marilyn x

Healing Art : The Phoenix

Acrylic on hardboard.

I wasn't going to show this #workinprogress but as it is a full moon I wanted to share.  The face has changed since I took this photograph.  This paintingis influenced by the Nibiru story and this is the phoenix    " According to the Greek historian Herodotus (b: 484 BC), the phoenix was a mythical bird from Ethiopia. It was spectacularly large, beautiful and adorned with mind-blowing plumage. The historian also reported that the phoenix made a nest cypress branches. Rather preparing to lay eggs, the phoenix was preparing to die. While sitting in the nest, the bird created a great deal of heat, and set itself on fire from its own heat with the cypress serving as kindling. After three days, the phoenix emerged from its own ashes - reborn and released from the sentence of death, able to live on forever" source what is your sign

I am nowcreating a package for those suffering with Creative or physical burnout and this painting comes at a time when rebirth is needed for those who have given a lot and need rejuvenation it is now time.

Self Care for Therapists

I remember my first encounter with Burnout I was working as a Beauty and Holistic Therapist at Bliss Clinic in Portobello Road in early 2001; After four years practicing I had to give up bodywork for a long time due to a lack of self-care. I had a good number of regular clients but I could no longer physically work at the level I was used too. I believe my need for external validation of making others feel better was the driving force of allowing my own resources to become dry.

Eventually I moved into Coaching and Training others to become Therapists which again led me to Burnout.  So in 2012 I retired from over-giving and I changed my way of working.

During this time my mentor/therapist would remind me that I have been a classic rescuer so over giving is in my nature.

Over giving is often in the nature of Healers, Artists, Therapists and can be linked to the Karpman Drama triangle ‘PVR’ triangle, where one becomes the Rescuer and gives tirelessly and eventually collapses with exhaustion or become either a victim or persecutor (see video).

“Work is Love made Visible” – Kahlil Gibran

We love our work but there needs to be some exchange because as a Creative Healer our work is our life, but we need to be able to tap into other sources so we can work better.

I like to use the percentage model with my clients; How much percentage does your work take? for example if it is 50% what are the percentages for other areas in your life? for a Healer therapist I believe rest should be very high on your list unless you have a specific project.  This model comes from a more complex model used by the Aztec healers explained by the now departed Healer Elena Avila in her book Women who Glows in the Dark. The Author explains the Aztec model for Healers in more detail.
It is really important for you to have a plan or an ethos for living as a pioneer because anything less would be detrimental to your growth.

Six ways to bring balance and self-care into your life.
1 Community (Partner /Friends/ Family)
2 Rest and Relaxation
3 Exercise
4 Going out in nature
5 Mediation, Prayer, Gratitude, Creativity
6 Healthy Food

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