Sometimes finding the right way to start a blog post is like splitting hairs, I have to be motivated to start the topic otherwise being in my head just makes me freeze like a Deer in headlights. My anxiety and top dog wants to make me stop because the topic is just not 'smart ' enough. So, I must wait until my heart is ready to stand in its courage and speak its truth and my truth is;
I am a chronic people pleaser and over achiever
I am also very creative with a 1000 ideas per hour moving through me, I am also good at monetizing those ideas to make them work for me.
After reading this article I realise how it was important to admit, feel and let go of the need to justify why I had so many streams of income (my embarrassment was linked to people judging me for 'being different)..
Trying to please others and over achievingis like having an addiction because we are never able to satisfy that craving it will always be the next goal to achieve and the next person to please. I am have a distinction between my creative energy and overachieving people pleasing.
My creative drive is through an inner guidance that sometimes does not make sense, something I felt when I created the paintings for the 2017 Calender.
My people pleasing is from the need to be praised or an idea suggested by others.
When I first moved into my studio I felt so small like a fraud as I ignored that voice that said "don't worry you will soon fill this up" and within months I created most of the images for my calendar. But at the time I was doubting who I was and why did I need to have this studio, because the desire to have the studio was my longing not from others suggesting I have it, I pleased my (inner) self. .
You don’t know what level is your comfort zone until you are challenged, and one of those challenges are to stop pleasing others and start pleasing yourself.
Suggestion: Chose 5 major choicesyou made in your life and write down the reasons behind the choice and who influenced you.
Post your answers in the comments below.
Marilyn x